just a perspective

“Do you think it all meant nothing, all the longing? The longing for home? For indeed it now feels not like going, but like going back. All my life the Godof the Mountain has been wooing me. Oh, look up once at least before the end and wish me joy. I am going to my lover. Do you not see now?” -C.S. Lewis


I find it silly that Harold Camping would advertise to billions of people when Judgement day would be here. I don't care how good he is at math, if he's going to spew Jesus to the world, he needs to spew all of it. Especially the part where The Bible says, "But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in Heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father." Matthew 24:56. He is obligated to his opinions and beliefs like any American of course... but wow. To invest so much money to mislead people... Anyway.

I wasn't about to listen to him. I knew better. In fact, when 6 o'clock came around I was at a Starbucks in Elk Grove after work training reading and waiting for my dad. But even if Jesus came back then... I'd be more than okay. Which is the point of the quote at upper most region of this blog. There are days when things just crumble and attack and I just don't feel like dealing with the world and people and I would simply much rather be in Heaven. In peace. With Jesus. And it's understandable why I'd just want Jesus to come back during those times! It'd be so much better! But... It's also when I'm worshipping. Not singing along, not clapping. Fully worshipping that I realize: "I could do this forever... I GET to do this forever!" And there are certain aspects of God and His creation that just keeps drawing me to heaven and the reason that I can't find a place here, is because it is not my place. God has been wooing me for 19+ years. To go home. I'm excited to sit and have a cup of coffee with Jesus while watching suns rise and suns set or however it works in Heaven. So, I would be okay if Jesus came back. I know where I'm going.

However. It reminds me that there is so much work to be done. I was thinking on Saturday: "What if this is it? Who have I told Jesus to? Have I done all that God has asked of me?" Now is not the time for me to not listen. Now is not the time for me to give up when I seek and hear nothing.