oh sweet, sweet sun

The sun is FINALLY shining in beautiful Costa Mesa today. I would be outside basking and reading but... alas. I have a paper to write (being an English major this will probably be my future.... wait. How did I end up on blogspot?). My laptop cannot charge because my charger is in the grave. So... Here I am in the library. Really nice computers. But it's awkward writing in here. Yeah, I don't get it either. A lot has taken place since I last wrote. I got to see Ashley. Friendships are mending. Things are still hectic, chaotic, awkward and STRESSFUL... but I still have loads full of joy and peace. I guess that's what the Bible means by "peace beyond all understanding" means. Not that we can't understand the peace, but that peace replaces our wanting and desire to know and understand. I've come to realize how evident this is in my life. I have... about a month and two weeks left of school. And although I love my school, my floor, my friends, and just being here dearly... I cannot wait for this semester to be over. This year has given me my fair share of challenges and memories... I still don't understand why God wants me here or how I'm going to make it next year (hello student loans....). I know people always say that high school is THE defining moment of your life, and while I believe it is one of them, I've been realizing that THIS time in my life... 18 almost 19... on my own, new place, new people... has been the most revealing of myself. I was talking about this with one of my very close friends Moneh today. And really, it is true. I look at the people I've met since August and it's amazing how they've changed, grown, and found something new about life, God, and themselves. I look at myself even. I can't describe how much I've changed. Even physically. I read in "My Utmost for His Highest" the other day that "You will be the most amazed person at what God has done in your life." And I am. I know other people might see it, but I get to feel it and understand. It's quite extraordinary! Okay. This human trafficking paper won't write itself (but oh how I wish). If you've never heard of human trafficking or don't know enough, please, google it. Find reliable articles. It is heart breaking.